Okay… story time? Warning: It is not the most inspirational one and I still don’t know how it ends.
I have been working in the content and marketing field for almost 9 years now. My expertise is in content (or so I like to believe). Ask me for a content sample and I have one for every industry.
I have written about technology extensively, majorly about cloud services and software reviews, functionalities and whatnot. Initially, it was difficult because even though I have multiple degrees in literature, languages, publishing and marketing, my knowledge of computers and the IT sector, in general, has always been limited.
Gradually, I started enjoying writing about tech but still, not in my wildest dream did I ever think that I will get into hardcore tech (P.S. I am still not there yet. Remember, the story is still ongoing).
At the beginning of 2022, a tiny voice in my head told me to give it a try. I brushed it off because I did not have enough confidence. Totally on me.
The Lost Opportunity
As the year progressed, I got the opportunity to work with this enormously talented person in tech. They are very particular about the things they want. This can become difficult for some but if you have the right perspective, such people help you come out of your comfort zone and grow.
Let me say this again… this person is brilliant. Brilliant.
Okay, back to the story. I discussed with them that I would like to make a career switch and they were very supportive. Half of the courage that I got to do this goes to them. Scratch it, all of it is them.
They tried to get me into a tech accelerator programme but I could not make the cut. I gave my best but it did not happen because I was not good enough.
Is this the end of the world? No!
Did I think it was? Yes!
Did I cry myself to sleep, triggered my trauma and blamed my therapist for making me aware of my emotions? Absolutely!
Anyway, I did not think about it for a few days. Made a presentation for an APM post, and failed miserably again.
I told you… It’s not a very inspirational read.
What’s Happening Now?
Honestly, being rejected multiple times is bad but it is on me. I am not good enough, yet. Yet!
You see, I know what the problem is. It is me. Also, this is not a self-pity post.
Now that I know what’s wrong, I can fix it and that’s the best part.
I may not be the smartest person in the room but I am the most consistent one. If I continue to work on myself, I can do it and that is more than enough for me.
I want to move out of my country. It is not a naive thought that randomly cropped in my head.
I have always felt out of place and misunderstood. There is nothing wrong with the people here. They are lovely. We are just not a good match. The opportunities that I want, personally and professionally, are unfortunately not here.
As tech people get hired quickly in Europe and USA, I am hoping that this happens for me too. Keeping my fingers crossed!
So, how am I feeling now:
- Scared, nervous and confused.
- Unsure about how I will make it happen.
- I have reached a new height of anxiety
- Got recently diagnosed with ADHD. That can’t be good either
- Still unapologetically optimistic!
Let’s see what happens.